Hi everyone, this is your reminder to enter the Creativity Challenge! Your icons are due by Saturday, November 14 at noon central time. We have two entries so far!

Three names you go by:
Deb
Debbie
DeBORah

Three screen names you have:
singergirl01
beeconsecrated
coffeebee

Three things you like about yourself:
My eyes
My hair
My imagination


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gonna butcher the deer today which means pizza for dinner...yay!

is typing up what part of her novel she wrote longhand while hunting...which isn't much :( i'm sooo behind... #nanopanic

Off to the mountains to go hunting =)

My dad (Mike) called me to ask if us kids wanted to go to the park and grab an ice cream, and he had a large bag of candy (chocolates). I thought it'd be a good idea to get outta the house, and we (the boys) didn't have anything to do anyway. I also thought to jump at this opportunity to see once again for myself how he is like. After living 15 years with him as my dad, I've learned that it's so easy, no matter what, to just overlook everything. Even when it's pretty bad. So I agreed. We'd been sick the whole past week and the week before (flu bug), but it was a warm day, and I figured I could talk to Laura (my sister) about what I'd decided and then talk to dad.
As it happens, the visit went okay (which is surprising). I actually had a little fun (another surprise). We even went to sonic for the Happy Hour and got slushies.  And I talked to both Laura and dad. At first, Laura was all like "You go, girl! And I'm coming with you!", but after I talked with her some more about it, "If you jump on the bandwagon and say you're going, it'll fowl it up for me. I'll be 18 soon. You're turning 15 (Our birthdays are 9 days apart). I need to see if this works out first. I'll get things ready for if it does work out, you can come too in another year. I'm not sure that it'll work myself, with just me there. You know how he is. And he's working now. Not to mention the fact that you and him fight like cats and dogs.". Finally, she said I was right. i was concerned that she would be upset, and I could see that she was. (This was while we were on the children's swingset. xD). We walk over and set on the wall and chat about it for a long time more. She agrees with me and my decision, and supports my ideas. Which, ofc, made me more sure what I think I want is right.
However, funny thing. Ever since the thought entered my head to go live with my dad, I did not and have not spoken to anyone except write here and then to Laura last Sunday, I've noticed that there has been suddenly a lot of talk from my mom about getting a vehicle for me that I can drive, and getting my license and other stuff to help me grow up and move on. It's all good, but when I look at it, all I can see is how it'll all be weighed down and a wet blanket thrown on it b/c and from him.  The whole driving thing... I know I told mom that it was because the vehicles are too big. Yeah, that was one reason. What I didn't tell her was the other reasons... She's a poor instructor. She usually has him with her (which totally ruins everything - he doesn't drive so i feel like I'm intruding in a place where he should be.). Or she has the kids with her (which I have no problem with, since I'm used to them, but it still makes it a little more difficult).  She doesn't really have any time to be instructing me on how to drive, or the time to go anywhere to let me drive. I got sick of the tiny little 'drive from here to there' when we weren't late for my job in the summertime because I wasn't learning anything and I just looked stupid. I finally just stopped it altogether, and blamed it on the vehicles.
Whew, ok................. So now I'm feeling guilt. remorse (for even thinking about leaving). like she needs me, like I'll be abandoning her without help. like she wants to do so much for me, and has, and what do I do?
Now my sister and I got a chance (once in a million....) to talk to to her about what we don't like, and wth! I find out that all this between the girls and him is really tearing her up! Geez. Ok, now I feel even worse. She's going to college for CNA this week and next and has a ton of homework and cannot, I repeat cannot flunk any of the tests or even the class. Not that talking to her about what's been going on really made a difference, as far as I can see. Expect now I feel more and more like a heel...
On the other hand, I think, if I don't do this (go live with my dad), how do you know that Cheesecake isn't made out of cheese unless you try it? How do I know that it will be unpleasant over there if I don't try it? At least if I do, I'm thinking that I can make it better living conditions for when the little ones have to take their visits. They'll each and every one of them have to take visits until at least 16 years old. That's a long time, since the youngest is not even 4 yet. And it might just make him (dad) nicer to us all if one of us lived with him. I know he's very lonely and feels rejected that none of us want(ed) to live with him.
I don't know.... I know if the he stays here or I do, I'll go insane...

is once again reminded why she likes cats way better than dogs! *cuddles with her cat and goes to sleep*

Home!!

Home in about 2 hours :D

is glad her ears aren't hurting after going over the mountains ^_^ usually my ears hurt so bad but not at all this time!

Home in 5 hours :( not 3 :(

Blew a tire on the trailer :( dad's surprised it didn't happen before, lol

I love montana! We should be home sometime around 9 or 9:30 pm ^_^ (if the eta hasn't changed)

In montana...yay!!

Going over the mountains near coer d'alene

Going to cabella's! Just crossing into idaho!

In washington finally!